at first throw off

I met him last March 2007 few days after his birthday. Ethan and I jive very good, without talking i know what he likes to do and how to make him interested, and he ca also do the same for me.
We go out a lot, practically every nite, going to bars, drinking and seeing people come and go. We work out in same gym. Since we see each other everyday, we enjoy each other's company so much.

Everything was magic bet him and me. I dont know why things have to be changed and things are now uncertain.

I dont know if it is a mistake to feel hurt...

Last Thursday he sent me a message thru his cp, saying he wants to dye his hair. So i said ok, i will die it. So i did that nite. After dyeing his hair, he invited me to out and have some drinks in our "home" bar in Malate. We end up not going because he and i have appointment with Seung Woo next day to have dinner and maybe drink till midnight so Ethan and i opted to
go out the next day. After doing some personal things, i hand washed my favorite long sleeve shirt for tomorrow.

Friday nite, i was so excited about it. Came home early from work and iron my shirt and dress up. I was trying to reach him but i can not and after few angry messages he replied, where i am and they are done having dinner. He asked to met them instead in his place and so i did. when i reached home i was so disappointed that it was dinner date but i was not in a dinner. So i just handed to him his pants, he asked me to alter some of his pants. He asked me to removed my shoes which was he never asked me to do in his house. Though, i dont mind removing my shoes but why just now that he has his friends there. And so just uttered, i needed to go home to change clothes, and i was from a meeting thats why i was dress up.

I was hurt. But then i went home to change to a more casual wear. After few hours i went back since i really miss him. The way we used to do. Ethan and I didn't do a single thing without each other.

I tried rationalizing things on myself, the dinner, his comments, actions are different; so i can mingle to all of them nicely and jolly.

I was hurt when i got to know they played bowling. I asked Ethan to play with me several times but he refuses. But as how Rick told me, Ethan enjoyed a lot. But of course, i might be a boring player so he didn't want to played with me. Ethan and i played badminton before and he told me that I'm not a good player so he wont be playing again with me. Should i say it hurts me!!?? yeah even now...



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i called him just now, i will see him tomorrow and and talk to him all things inside me.