after and after and after

I talk to him last Monday. After doing things we always do together---gym, sauna, and eat. We went to a bar and drunk some booze. I know i needed a booze otherwise, i wont be telling everything i have inside me. He was sorry that it happened.

I came to think about, what will be next. I mean i used to love him so much but now, the feeling fades away. It is true that a love relationship has a very good foundation if it is base from friendship but like other relationship when the foundation has been "demolished", it meant to fade away. And the difficulty about it is that second time around is more difficult. There could times that what surprise or should i say get the interest, the partners before can no longer work. Worst is when it is on the state of come what may--- both are reluctant to be not with each other or maybe on the process of letting go.

I invited him over dinner. At 7pm, Ethan and i had dinner. But the feeling was no longer the same or maybe i don't remember anymore how it feels to be together doing normal stuff.

It just hit me that, it could also be said that a relationship is in good condition when both of you are doing the normal things like eating meals together, shopping for clothes even just for your partner. Helping things a his house. This things are boring stuff but when the partners getting stronger this is funniest things to do. Quiet time. This is what lacks with my relationship to Ethan. He and i were always out. Though there are things we do together, he felt awkward that i felt boring, but staying in his room while he is studying and im playing with my cellphone----was the most cherished moment i have. I gues it shows how comfortable the partners are.

I just want to make a clarification, yes i love Ethan but he and I are just bound to be best friends. And loving someone are partners are almost the same as having a boyfriend or girlfriend. I am in love with someone (not Ethan) now.

Tomorrow, i want to write about my work and try to share my professional knowledge about it---being a jeans designer and merchandiser.


I wonder if i could have categories for post here. like if people just chose my professional views about jeans or merchandising so they can click on that category.